A Glimpse of the Mushy Bride-to-be ( before I turn into Bridezilla!)

I can't think of any other way to officially start this blog other than saying:

I have never been so sure in my entire life.

So, its a YES. Definitely, no second thoughts about it.

Its just that from the time we told our parents that we have selected a date and a year to get married, I have been bombarded with the question of whether I'm sure of what I'm getting into. And without a hint of doubt, I tell them, I am.

Maybe in this generation, women getting married (without the baby bump) at the age of 24 may seem totally insane and really impulsive, but I have no hesitations. They say I have my whole life ahead of me, and I agree - all the more reason not to prolong the waiting and spend the rest of it with the man who has shown me the deeper meaning of life.

Some say that I might meet another person in the future, but I believe that love isn't just a feeling, but a commitment. To be with the other person for good times and bad, to love and stay in love, and work on being in love for the rest of your lives. If we work on friendship, why the heck can't we work on love? Needless to say, I have no doubts. Besides, I'm marrying one of my very best friends, the one person in the universe who can make me laugh and smile even at the most difficult times.

So I don't understand why some people think its suffocating to get married. Of course there are certain things that you can only do when you're single, but I don't think its the end of freedom. I'm just looking forward to spend the days and nights laughing and having a good time with my babe.

Other people scare us by saying that being boyfriend-girlfriend is so far from being husband and wife. But some happily married people I trust tell me that sometimes they don't feel the difference and they wake up still head over heels with the person they fell in love with years ago. I prefer to believe the latter. I'm not going to believe that every marriage is doomed when I am just getting there. I think I know my fiancee pretty well and he knows me, but if we're going to find out something about each when we become husband and wife, then that makes it all the more exciting don't you think?

Another issue being thrown at me is being un-domesticated. "Sure ka na ba? Walang maid, kaya mo? Maglaba, mag-alaga ng bata? Magluto, maglinis ng bahay, kaya mo?" Eh hindi naman ako nag-aapply bilang katulong ah! Haha just kidding. Well, I'm not the most industrious person at home, and I admit to have grown up with maids, but, I've dabbled on doing the laundry, washing dishes, cleaning and cooking at one point (I am even a decent baker I believe, I can whip up a mean blueberry cheesecake!), so I don't think my future family is doomed. Besides, I am determined to be the best for them, and you can't go wrong with passion and determination.

Recently, while looking for means to increase our savings and budget for the wedding, I have discovered that I have a flair for business, something I never thought I had. So, who knows? There are facets of me that are yet to be tapped. I might be the good homemaker that you never imagined. I love kids and I seem to have more patience for them than other girls I know so that could be a start. I look up to my mom a lot. She empowers a lot of women even when she is "just a housewife" (was, now she's an entrepreneur). I know that being a homemaker is no easy feat. You know, I wasn't trained to be the most hospitable girl in suburbia, but this I know for sure: I love the man who will be my husband. He is really good to me, and I will do my best to make him feel loved and taken cared of. He deserves the best and that's exactly how hard I'll try. Anyway, he's a boy scout, he can cook his own food naman if I ruin dinner. Hahaha joke lang babe :)

On a lighter note, despite these somewhat party-pooper questions, I know that they (family and friends) mean well. That's how loved we both are. And I'm sooo not discouraged. I have never been this sure. I just listen to their comments to avoing being rude, but no one will ever make me change my mind. The plans on where we'll settle down and how we'll battle the long distance haven't been laid out yet, but I know that I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him. In fact, I just want all these questions, the preparations to go by so that I can already be with him, forever.

We have just finalized the date and the church where the ceremony will take place. It's where I have always dreamed of marrying him. From one theme in mind, we decided to go with another which suits the season when we'll get married. It's so us, in every sense of the word, or words.

You may ask how he's doing with all the preparations. He's dealing with it like a perfect gentleman. Offering inputs and letting his bride let her creativity out. Being generous and patient with her over-anxious and OC fiancee. He is every bride's dream groom. Hahaha. I love him with all my heart. He makes me even more excited to hear that line, "I now pronounce you, husband and wife." I may be a little scatterbrained, and my vision of the dream wedding changes from time to time, but only one factor remains constant. Him, waiting for me at the altar, in his sincere reassuring debonaire smile that makes me want to rush to his arms in a heartbeat.

Now, that's where all the mush went :) kiliiiig... :))

This song I'm feeling right now:
Breathe - Faith Hill
I can feel the magic floating in the air
Being with you gets me that way
I watch the sunlight dance across your face and
I'veNever been this swept away

All my thoughts just seem to settle on the breeze
When I'm lying wrapped up in your arms
The whole world just fades away
The only thing I hear
Is the beating of your heart

'Cause I can feel you breathe
It's washing over me
Suddenly I'm melting into you
There's nothing left to prove
Baby all we need is just to be
Caught up in the touch
The slow and steady rush
Baby, isn't that the way that love's supposed to be
I can feel you breathe
Just breathe

**so on less-busy days i will be writing about my experiences in preparing for my wedding, posting pictures or links of inspiration, and maybe sometimes venting when stress seeps in. Watchout, I might become bridezilla! hahaha i hope not... Right now I just want to enjoy and take in all the excitement and mush that I am feeling...

Again, welcome :)