I was trying to take a breather by browsing weddingbee one time, and I came across this blog written by Ms. Glitter. Except for the first paragraph (which is totally opposite) and the part about the groomsmen's ties (I totally knew that), it was so me! It was like I wrote this blog and felt it by heart...Anyway, let me share it to you na lang:Can I tell you a secret? I’ve never planned an event in my life (unless you count a friend’s birthday at a local restaurant as “event planning”). And I don’t know what I’m doing. Shhh, don’t tell anyone.
Often times, I feel genuinely out of my league when reading through the posts of other bees or looking at weddings in magazines or online. Picture-perfect brides remind me of that girl from one of my college English classes. She always had the correct answers, and her nail polish matched her shoes. Next to her, I felt like the awkward girl in the back of the classroom who needed to borrow your pen and wasn’t caught up on my reading. I was always one step behind.
I care about wedding planning (or I wouldn’t be blogging about it), but I’ve got to be honest with myself: I’m a big picture type of person. Ask me what marrying Mr. G means to me, and I could probably write a novel about it. Ask me if the groomsmen’s ties should be matching the bow on the bridesmaids’ dresses, and my indecisiveness takes over.
I have general concepts of what I want everything to look like and how I want the day to run. But, now it’s crunch time.T-minus three months to go. Wedding tasks are becoming very specific. Details, details, details. I feel myself wanting everything to be just right. Since when did I become a perfectionist? And who said everything had to be perfect, anyway? I’ve got my stomach in knots every night. But why? Maybe I’m trying to be the flawless girl from English class. But I can’t be her; I can only be me.
I need to remember to remain true to Mr. G and I, and what we want our wedding to be. Weddingbee and other sources of inspiration have helped me tremendously. Without them, I honestly don’t know where I would be. But, when all of this is done, I can guarantee two things: my wedding will be over and I’ll be married. Through all of this, Mr. G and I may not be featured in Martha Stewart Weddings. It probably won’t be perfect, but I hope I’ll love it because it will be ours.
Have you found yourself striving toward wedding perfection? How have you dealt with that need to get every detail just right?
