Tried on my wedding gown and its not perfect yet, there's still so much to do despite the fact that we started preparing since January of 2009.
Yesterday, I already booked our suppliers for the rings and invitations. And I met with our closest friends who we asked to take care of the church ceremony on the day of the wedding. Today, I went with my brothers to the tailor to have their suits made. And then we went to Cubao Expo and had my wedding shoes customized.
People have been asking me nonstop about the wedding preparations, and as always, I try to keep a straight face. Partly because, I don't wanna give away too much information about the wedding, it would ruin the excitement for everyone. And, I try not to be too stressed out and affected by what other people say. So on the outside, it may appear that I'm just taking a chill-pill, but if you know me better, on the inside, I'm already jumping up and down and screaming with excitement.
I always tell my sister that she's been sleeping a lot despite the never-ending projects and assignments she has for school. But when I think about it, I'm the one with a ticking clock and with the big day coming so soon. So I'm wondering why its so easy for me to be falling asleep every night when there's an endless checklist in my mind that I have to work on day and night. Everything will have to take place in the next few weeks and I need to check as much to-dos as I can before the one-month countdown begins. Why am I able to doze off easily? Maybe its because its busy and hot during the day that I can't help but retreat to the comforts of my bed at night.
Normal? Maybe, but not for an OC-bride like me. I keep thinking that now should be the time that I'm not gonna be able to sleep every night as I obsess on every detail about the wedding. That every day I could cross out an item from my mental checklist of sorts. When I'm in-charge of an event, the sleepless nights usually come really close to the date. That when effortlessly I can pull an all-nighter. But it's my wedding day, and as I'm planning to be a relaxed and graceful bride, I don't wanna have to do that. I wanna be able to chill and let go of all preparations at least three days before the event.
So what do I do now? I need to stop channeling all my energy to sleeping and really try staying up late to work on things I need to work on, details I need to fix and finalize. All this while still working during the day. I need to be less lax and be more hyper about it. Ever had the feeling that outside, you appear to be relaxed and calm and collected and graceful about everything, but on the inside, your jumping up and down, dancing and running around, your head and your heart is bursting with excitement and everything's pretty nerve-wracking? That's what I have been feeling right now. I'm insane I know. Camille is not Cams without CRAZY. I don't know if I need this relaxed mode to keep my sanity (otherwise, people seeing me running around and being so looney about the preps would be so disturbing, they might know I'm actually crazy) or I need to unleash my inner Road Runner/Tazmanian Devil at this point so that I may finish everything in time for our one-week relaxation period.
Can you believe how time went by so quickly? :) Grabe... but despite all the things that I still need to do, I'm still all for pulling the days so that our wedding day would come and we would finally be married! =))
Oh well, I'll try to blog as often as I could, but more than that, I need to work on more tasks and cross things out my checklists. Pray for me.
